It goes without saying how incredibly difficult today was for both of us. We woke up this morning and spent time together gaining strength and talking about Theo and all he stood for. The sun was shining and we were sure he was looking down on us sending all the support and love he could. I have no doubt in my mind that Theo was with us every step of the way. At times during the service, I managed to feel peaceful and happy thinking of my beautiful baby who was now at peace and that is a lovely memory to have. I didn't manage to see how full the church was, but I got a real sense of a lot of love and support and I know that carried us through today. It was so comforting to see some familiar and loved faces, and although they looked really sad, it felt nice to know so many people had travelled to be with us and say goodbye to Theo. We will take time over the next couple of days to personally thank friends who travelled a distance to be with us. It was really touching and comforting.
I am extremely proud of my husband for being able to stand up today and speak on behalf of the two of us. He has been so brave and supportive throughout our journey and I know our bond is even stronger. I know Theo would be very, very proud of his daddy. One of the hardest parts of today was watching Gary get dressed for the funeral. It was one of the most upsetting moments and I just felt so sorry for him. I never thought we would ever have to prepare for our own child's funeral and sometimes it is the less obvious moments that are the hardest.
Gary and I have made the decision that tonight will be our last posting on our blog. It makes me sad to say that as it kind of feels like goodbye. The blog has been a distraction, a record of events and also a huge support to ourselves but it is time to get on with the next part of our journey. I feel that the next bit will, in someway, be the hardest and I don't know how we get on with 'normal' life as there is now a huge void and nothing will ever be the same. We thank you from the bottom of our hearts for sharing this journey with us and I know the blog will be read a hundred times by ourselves over the years as will your kind and comforting comments.
To our beautiful and brave son Theo,
May you be in peace now with the angels.
Forever in our hearts and always in our thoughts.
We love you to heaven and back...
Love mummy and daddy xxx
I am extremely proud of my husband for being able to stand up today and speak on behalf of the two of us. He has been so brave and supportive throughout our journey and I know our bond is even stronger. I know Theo would be very, very proud of his daddy. One of the hardest parts of today was watching Gary get dressed for the funeral. It was one of the most upsetting moments and I just felt so sorry for him. I never thought we would ever have to prepare for our own child's funeral and sometimes it is the less obvious moments that are the hardest.
Gary and I have made the decision that tonight will be our last posting on our blog. It makes me sad to say that as it kind of feels like goodbye. The blog has been a distraction, a record of events and also a huge support to ourselves but it is time to get on with the next part of our journey. I feel that the next bit will, in someway, be the hardest and I don't know how we get on with 'normal' life as there is now a huge void and nothing will ever be the same. We thank you from the bottom of our hearts for sharing this journey with us and I know the blog will be read a hundred times by ourselves over the years as will your kind and comforting comments.
To our beautiful and brave son Theo,
May you be in peace now with the angels.
Forever in our hearts and always in our thoughts.
We love you to heaven and back...
Love mummy and daddy xxx