12.1.09

I am allowed out today which is good news although at the same time quite hard as I am leaving to go back to the 'real' world but without my baby. At least being in the hospital feels like you have had a baby and that something major has happened. It's like you want to delay time so you don't have to start the really tough bit of trying to live normally(well as close as possible would be nice). We went over to visit Theo in the afternoon and he had had another settled night and they had re dressed his exomphalos. When we first walked in to ITU there were about 13 people all around his bed which off course set mum off but the amazing thing is that they are all specialists in their own fields and all giving their input into what is best for our son. It is truly overwhelming to see the level of expertise and care that goes into getting it right for our boy and we can't begin to describe how thankful we are. The surgeon said he was very happy with the repair of the tear and it was really hard to find where it had been stitched. They have also dressed and covered it in flamozene(used for burns) and put a covering over it. He now looks like he has a large football on his chest and it just looks so big and uncomfortable however, there are no signs that he is struggling anymore with it like this and he is still only on a little oxygen to assist his lungs. He had his eyes open again today and it was nice to sit and talk to him and rub his hand. So although a tough day for me with lots of tears, it was a very positive day for Theo and nice to see him settled.